Dark circles under my eyes
Back pain that doesn’t go away
A crying 3 month old next to me
A cold trying to come on
I have to get up to take care of him, I can’t let body pain and a tiny cold stop me from doing what I have to, I have nobody to lean on, I can do it alone. I am a Mother, I am a Protector, I am a Warrior.
Every night with no fail, my 3 month old goes to sleep at 11 pm and wakes up at 2 am and 4 am and finally at 7 am with no intention of going back to sleep until 12 pm, by then it’s too late for me to try to catch a few extra sleeps because I have too many things to do, I have to make myself breakfast, I have to wash clothes, I have to try to make some money to buy the essentials; diapers, wipes, clothes.
To make things worse, little man is in the teething stage, if he was hard to put to sleep before, now he is just impossible. I usually try to rock him and it’s either a hit or a miss. Now I strap him into his carrier and walk around the house, he’s pushing 14 lbs while I’m a skinny 92, you can just imagine the pain I have in my back, shoulders, and neck. I can’t admit defeat no matter how much it hurts because baby must sleep so that I don’t pass out while he’s awake. I don’t know what is about the carrier that puts him out but whatever it is I am grateful. Maybe it reminds him of being inside the womb, who knows, I just hope it continues to be my good luck charm.
All that aside, my little man is growing up so fast and I’m becoming weepy, I had such a rough pregnancy and wanted it to be over fast and now that he’s here time is going by so fast I wish it would slow for a while. From a tiny 5 lb 6 oz baby to 14 lbs in just 3 months, it’s astonishing to me, maybe because I am a first time mom and don’t remember my youngest brother or my 4 nieces gaining weight so fast.
Doesn’t help either that he seems to be in a rush to grow up, wants to stand, wants to sit up, he can already turn from his back to the left or right, it surprised me, I wonder what other surprises he may have in store for me.
I’ll just wait to see what he does next month, maybe he will be crawling by then, for now it’s time for this mom to take care of her bouncing baby boy.